Monthly Archives: December 2008

Now I Have It. Now I Don’t.

I feel a bit torn between being happy and sad. I was surprised to open a gift from hubby last Christmas, considering he already gave me his early Christmas present almost two weeks ago, and in my hand was this new iphone.

Surprised but not totally. I mean I knew he was going to have another one but not for himself since he already has one. Before this new one arrived, we’ve already agreed to sell it and use the money to buy a new camera.

I guess I was just surprised that he would have thought of wrapping it and giving it to me as a gift… and letting me choose if I wanted to use it or sell it (to buy a camera). All the while I was expecting that once he gets the new unit, he’ll immediately sell it himself.

I never thought that with the real thing in my hand, it would be too tempting to open the box and use it.  I don’t know if I should be happy that he gave me the option to keep it or sell it.

I decided not to open it yet, and let the thought of a new camera or an iphone linger in my mind. I had a few days to think, and though it was really so tempting to open the box and use the phone already, I guess I felt it would be more worth it to buy a new camera.

I figured I’m still content with my current phone, and I can always enjoy and get the features that I love about the iphone (internet, mail, music, video) from an ipod touch without spending as much. Though I know that still has to wait. Camera first.

And so… I had this, and now today, I don’t.


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Rediscovering An Old Passion Through “Twilight”…

I never thought I still had it in me. I mean my reading comprehension and passion when it comes to novels. I used to read and read a lot of novels when I was younger especially during my college days and early years after college. I could finish a novel, no matter how thick, in less than twelve hours or sometimes over one sleepless night. I could get so absorbed that instead of sleep overtaking me, I would be more and more awake and alert to the story, the characters and the emotions of the book I was reading. And it would be so hard to stop.

However, as I got to working with a very hectic schedule and with a growing perfectionist and workaholic side to me, I forgot about my reading passion. I simply had no more time, until it was out of my routine… out of my system.

Years later when I was no longer working, I wanted to get back to it. Reading novels, enjoying the fantasy, loving the escape it brings from reality. Time wasn’t a problem anymore.

However, for some reason, I was finding it difficult. My mind cannot seem to absorb what I was reading.  There were moments I would be reading one page again and again, and still I couldn’t digest the words and imagine the story being laid out in front of me.  It gets actually frustrating.

So I decided to start from square one… with short stories, thinking I needed to get back into this slowly. For quite some time now, I would read some books on and off.  The last one was Neil Gaiman’s “Smoke and Mirrors”, a collection of short stories.  It took me so long to finish the whole book. Technically, I haven’t finished it since I didn’t read some of the stories. I just chose some which interested me.

It seems though that I still couldn’t really feel and get into it… into whatever it was I was reading unlike before. It felt like I was still just an observer from a distance, or like I was just reading a piece of story in a newspaper, emotionally detached.

Until this week.

I was down with the flu last Monday, and was asleep almost the whole day which left me wide awake in the evening.  I decided that was a good time to start reading a book my sister lent me few months back and had been bugging me for a year or two now to read (long before this hype came out) — Twilight.

As I started and went on to read, I didn’t realize how absorbed I was getting, how fast I was reading and how attached I was becoming.

I just became aware of it when I realized it was already three in the morning, and I was more than halfway through the book without any trouble comprehending and imagining what I was reading, and most of all, I was having great difficulty stopping to get some sleep.  But I know I had to. I needed rest. I was still sick.

When I woke up the next day, it felt strange how everything I read the night before was still so fresh and how it felt like it was a story that happened for real. I could almost feel it, smell it, taste it. It felt like I knew the characters first hand.

Weird. Really weird. The last time I had this same experience was 10 years ago or so… with Anne Rice’s “Interview with the Vampire” and Christopher Pike’s “The Whisperer” and “The Cold One”.

Of course, I finished Twilight that day. And I couldn’t help myself but crave for more. So I borrowed the rest of the sequel (books 2 to 4) from my sister, and finishing each (except book 4 which I’m still reading now) overnight (well, almost overnight).

And each time I wake up, the story and the characters just feels so close. Really close.

I don’t know if it’s just me. Sort of just a re-awakening of my senses. Rediscovering something I thought was lost. Am I really a sucker for dark stories especially for vampires? Or for the romance? Or simply for both? 🙂

In any case, it feels great.  And I’m glad I did decide to read Twilight. If only I listened to my sisters much much earlier.

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Early Christmas Present

This is the reason I couldn’t remove the grin off my face last Friday. As much as I put effort to straighten my face at times (or else I look like an idiot smiling foolishly to myself), it still couldn’t be helped that my lips would unconciously find its way to curve into a smile.

This is hubby’s early Christmas present. I actually had some money saved up to buy myself a new guitar this month. Remember how my other two guitars are finally giving up on me? I guess it’s also about time since the old ones have been with me for so many years now. Though I know I still couldn’t let go of my first one.

He asked me if I wanted to go with him to the mall where he needed to buy something. At first I said no, not needing anything and feeling too lazy to go to the mall. However, when he asked if I wanted to take a look at some guitars, I suddenly changed my mind. I was ready and anxious to buy one this month anyway.

When I finally had a few options chosen, he told me this would be his Christmas present and I was to choose the one I liked most without worrying about the price. And it turned out that I (or we) ended up buying one that was way more than my original budget. Of course, I still had to be somehow frugal and practical, putting my own  limit to my options in monetary terms.

Yet, I couldn’t complain. Not in a million years. I still got more than I hoped for. And it is indeed a very nice guitar!

This is my best gift this Christmas.  🙂

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Taking A Breather

Finally, things have died down a bit and I have this free time to sit around, relax, surf, open my blog and post an entry. I was surprised to see the new dashboard design in wordpress. Cool! I like the new design. Feels more organized to me, though I’m still kinda getting used to it.

I missed photohunt for the whole month of November. There were just so many tasks to do that I couldn’t find the time. I had been sleeping very very late (or should I say very early in the morning) for the past weeks. It’s time I catch up on my sleep before things get busy again as the holidays are getting near.

Speaking of the holidays, I felt panicky this morning as my daughter told me that Christmas is just 14 days to go. Oh great! Where did time go? I haven’t done any Christmas shopping yet. And there are so000 many gifts I need to buy!!!

I hate shopping in December as the malls are crowded, lines are long and traffic is just bad. Shopping during this time is plain stressful for me! So I thought of buying some gifts online, and I started earlier today. I was able to find one item that I could give to eight persons.  Eight down, eighty-five to go… Good luck to me!

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