I’m not sure which is the real culprit or if all three are ganging up on me.
Lately, for the past how many months, my irritability level seemed to have skyrocketed. My body feels always tired not unless I get to exercise for the day. But if I don’t, I feel very lethargic. My motivation and interest levels seem blah. There are times I have many things on my mind I target to do but end up too tired to do it. 😦
Stress? Lack of sleep? Lack of fulfillment? Makes me think if these are adding to it as well. So question now is how do I get out if this rut?
I have been feeling very stressed since the holidays to the point of getting anxiety attacks, which I have to immediately counter with medications so I don’t feel worse.
Exhaustion. Burnt-out. Physically. Mentally. Emotionally. Spiritually.
I know there have been many blessings these past months despite whatever humps I’ve run into. My exhaustion and anxiety, soaring to another level, blind me from appreciating all the recent blessings.
It is so difficult to think and stay positive while you are dealing with anxiety. When all these “what-if” thoughts take control and it takes so much mental effort to fight it down. Of course, the medicine helps to calm those raging and unreasonable anxiousness.
Medications. Another challenge. I have been wanting to reduce taking medications and learning to deal with it through more natural means, but the past weeks have not been good and I needed to. Otherwise, I’d probably be this very irritable and anxious monster.
I know I still have a lot to be thankful for, despite this rollercoaster struggle with anxiety. I am still thankful it is manageable. I am thankful I am sensitive to my body and can feel when an attack seems coming. I am thankful I can still find strength (especially mentally) to fight it. I just wish I can learn more ways to help myself.