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Fear of Forgetting

During my teens and twenties, I knew without a doubt how photographic my memory was. In high school and college, I can clearly recall what I wrote in my notebook page by page. During exams, I would try to focus as if turning the pages of my notes in my mind looking for the answer to a question. At night before going to sleep, I can recall my day’s events in crisp clarity.

Two epidurals, stress and more than 10 years later, I find myself forgetting a lot of things. I used to be good with names. Now I can’t easily remember them. I misplace things. I forget events.

I have to keep a list of to-dos, a list of reminders, a list of passwords and a whole lot more.

But with this deteriorating memory, what I fear most is that I might forget the good times with my family, most especially with my spouse and my kids as they grow up. There are a lot of funny, warm, loving moments that I want to keep fresh in my mind until the day I die. Moments that I wish I can just easily open from my memory bank and relive in clear detail when I’m old and gray and I want to feel the joy, the love that this life has given.

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Sad Realization

It’s so sad how sometimes it’s the people you love who kills your passions – whether consciously or unconsciously….

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Sketched

It felt like forever since I last held a pencil and a sketch pad and drew. I had a number of attempts in the past years only to find myself staring at a blank page and finally giving up, or suddenly remembering some other task to do and leaving behind the sketch pad.

Tonight was different. I badly needed some escape… mentally that is. I got my daughter’s mongol 2 pencil and a recently bought sketch pad, started surfing for images in my iphone to kickstart some inspiration (while listenin to Yiruma’s Kiss the Rain)… and started drawing. Hope I can do this again. I miss this!

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Now You See Me, Now You Don’t

Half of 2010 just whizzed by and I realized only now that I haven’t posted any entries here nor visited any other blogs.

It’s a cliché but time does really fly especially when you are busy with many things — in my case new ventures and projects.

This year had a good start and hopefully it continues… Abundant blessings, lots of positive changes, and new opportunities.

The thing though with new ventures is I had to readjust schedules. So a number of previous “usual” activities were pushed to the side. However, as things slowly start to normalize and become more stable, it’s probably time to slowly bring back those activities– one of which is blogging. 🙂

Hope time permits… crossing fingers…

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Recovering…

October was a rough month for me, though I guess I should also say it was a great month… for improvements and good things came out of the challenges that happened last month. There are a lot of questions, what ifs and still some lingering hurts, but it’s better to focus on the all positive changes that has happened.

As much as I had a lot to write about the past weeks, I didn’t feel like blogging about all the negative stuff and the trials. I guess it was too difficult to put them to writing.

Though I wonder if it would have helped more to ease the hurts to release them into words…

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Need to Rise to the Occasion

For years, listening to this song has helped me a number of times ease some heartaches and broken spirits. Hope you still have your magic…

I can see it in your eyes
You need a friend tonight
‘Cause someone broke your heart in two
You need a volunteer
To wipe away your tears
Someone who will rescue you.

Your whole world is tumbling down
Can’t get your feet on solid ground
You’re looking for someone
Someone you know, you can count on

I’ll rise to the occasion
Help me through the situation
I’ll be your inspiration
Yeah, I’ll rise to the occasion, oh

No memories to shake
No promises to break
Just tender love and honestly
I can offer you so much
And I feel it when we touch
Maybe this was meant to be
I’m gonna share a secret with you
My heart’s been broken too
I’m looking for someone
Someone I know I can count on

So won’t you rise to the occasion
Help me through the situation
You can be my inspiration
Take to heart this invitation
Come on come on baby, ooh

Rise to the occasion
We’ll get through this situation
Be each other’s inspiration
I’ll rise to the occasion
I’ll give you real apprecation
I’ll be your inspiration

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It Hurts Only When I Breathe

The whole song is not an apt description but it does hurt when I breathe so I wish I can hold my breath – – to forget…

Hope life’s been good to you
since you’ve been gone
I’m doin’ fine now–I’ve finally moved on
It’s not so bad–I’m not that sad

I’m not surprised just how well I survived
I’m over the worst, and I feel so alive
I can’t complain–I’m free again

[Chorus:]
And it only hurts when I’m breathing
My heart only breaks when it’s beating
My dreams only die when I’m dreaming
So, I hold my breath–to forget

Don’t think I’m lyin’ ’round cryin’ at night
There’s no need to worry, I’m really all right
I’ve never looked back–as a matter of fact

[Repeat Chorus]

It only hurts when I breathe

Mmm, no, I’ve never looked back–
as a matter fact

[Repeat Chorus]

Hurts when I’m breathing
Breaks when it’s beating
Die when I’m dreaming
It only hurts when I breathe

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