Day 2. Trying to get back to some classic cardio on days I can’t go to Muay Thai training. Goal is to lose 5 lbs and maintain my weight at 105lbs. Weight today is almost 110lbs. Surprised to see that I seem to have gained weight in a week. 😱
Thank you for this night, for giving me this opportunity to serve you through one of the passions and talents you have embedded in me since I was young. Thank you for your confidence, your strength, courage and brilliance that you have shared with me tonight. Without it I know I would have been a nervous wreck, but surprisingly I felt calm than I usually am when playing in front of an audience.
Not in a million years did I think I will be doing this, playing for you, using your gift to honor you.
When I played tonight, it wasn’t perfect. Far from it. But playing with the group, something just clicked into place and felt so right.
Playing for you tonight felt like home.
“I can do allthings through Christ who strengthens mr.”
During my teens and twenties, I knew without a doubt how photographic my memory was. In high school and college, I can clearly recall what I wrote in my notebook page by page. During exams, I would try to focus as if turning the pages of my notes in my mind looking for the answer to a question. At night before going to sleep, I can recall my day’s events in crisp clarity.
Two epidurals, stress and more than 10 years later, I find myself forgetting a lot of things. I used to be good with names. Now I can’t easily remember them. I misplace things. I forget events.
I have to keep a list of to-dos, a list of reminders, a list of passwords and a whole lot more.
But with this deteriorating memory, what I fear most is that I might forget the good times with my family, most especially with my spouse and my kids as they grow up. There are a lot of funny, warm, loving moments that I want to keep fresh in my mind until the day I die. Moments that I wish I can just easily open from my memory bank and relive in clear detail when I’m old and gray and I want to feel the joy, the love that this life has given.
Earlier tonight while telling my daughters to sleep, I suddenly received an imessage on my phone. When I checked, it was from my youngest daughter. It then became an exchange of messages for a few minutes (note we were in the same room, only a few feet apart. She was in her bed beside ours).
I wish I could tangibly capture moments like this with my kids and preserve it forever. I wish they will always be this sweet. I wish they won’t grow up so fast.
Here goes our high-tech way of saying good night…
It’s so sad how sometimes it’s the people you love who kills your passions – whether consciously or unconsciously….
It felt like forever since I last held a pencil and a sketch pad and drew. I had a number of attempts in the past years only to find myself staring at a blank page and finally giving up, or suddenly remembering some other task to do and leaving behind the sketch pad.
Tonight was different. I badly needed some escape… mentally that is. I got my daughter’s mongol 2 pencil and a recently bought sketch pad, started surfing for images in my iphone to kickstart some inspiration (while listenin to Yiruma’s Kiss the Rain)… and started drawing. Hope I can do this again. I miss this!
Tried a new recipe earlier during lunch. Was surfing for squid recipes and found this easy one (and also one which I have available ingredients to use).
This is the recipe I followed…
• squid, sliced
• 3 cloves garlic
• 1 small onion
• 2 tomatoes (though I think more would be better)
• 3 tbsp oyster sauce
• 1 tbsp soy sauce
• 2 tbsp sugar (I used less cause I was afraid it might be too sweet ü)
Saute garlic, onions, and tomatoes.
Add squid, soy sauce and oyster sauce. Mix well and cook for 2 minutes (I think this should be in high heat).
Add sugar, and cook for another minute.
And you’re done!
Next time I think i’ll try adding more tomatoes and putting in salt and a little ginger… experiment… experiment!